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It's crazy how powerful it is.  I have a lot of fears. a lot of fears. I fear the completion of tasks. I fear that I may not meet expectations. I fear I never get married. I fear the idea of success and how that may change my life. I fear I can't keep up with my own life. I fear I'm not where I'm supposed to be in my life. I fear I will be disappointment. I fear the idea of being at peace, that it may never come.

And as one of my ex-boyfriends said, a lot of "irrational fears", too I absolutely fear driving. I fear losing my teeth. (I lost half of one today.) I fear clowns. I fear small spaces. I fear crowds. I fear relationships. I fear snails.

Fear is crippling. stifling. overwhelming.

Thankfully I have God and with Him "all fear is gone". So when I'm fearful I hold His truths close to me. I remember God is always with me. I remember God and my family and my friends believe in me. I remember as long as I look to God I am always where I'm supposed to be. I remember that failure and disappointment are normal parts of growing and improving. I remember "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." I remember that this life is for me to live for the eternal things, not earthly things. I remember that I always have access to peace when I pray. I remember that everything works out in the long run.

So now I'm hoping I can get my tooth fixed because I'm certainly super freaked out today about losing my tooth altogether.